Stickin' w/ the company...for now

Well, I have just told my Dad that for now I'm stickin' with my current employer. His salesman let him know that he was retiring in June, so he called and offered me the job. I thought about it and the possibility of going into the home construction business with him as well. In the end, I decided that my passion did not lie there. Now, I am not sure where I can say it truly lies, but it isn't there. I prayed and prayed today at lunch that God would give me some guidance. I am so thankful that my dad came over tonight to talk to me about it. God really used him to help me think through where I need to go next. I really need to decide where I want to be in 5, 10, 20 years and go for it. When I took the job for my current employer, I told them I was thinking I would be there 5 years or so. Ever since I have been thinking, "What's next?" It will be 3 years in August, and I really need to start thinking. I have felt for some time that I live my life on the edge of greatness afraid of falling off the other side. So, I step back and let opportunities go by as I speculate on what I should have done. It is all probably hubris, but my fear and doubt is real all the same. What an ass I am! God graciously loves me, bears my stuttering faith, and offers me more. He is so good.